As I sit staring at the "moving waves"

He had his last dose of Keppra 50.5 hours ago. From all I've read, it clears the system in 1-2days. So I sit with my little time bomb. My little " jack in the box." Anxiously waiting, trapped in our little hospital box, for jack. I want this to be over, I want to get the answers we need so we can get control of this monster. But I'm doing everything to go against what we work so hard everyday to achieve. It feels so wrong. The strict schedule, the bedtimes, the meds for Pete's sake.....GONE. I asked for a monitor to be hooked on him at night, seems scary to rip all his meds away and he is not on any kind of heart rate monitor. Praying for sleep